today was super fun... thanks hannah i really appreciated all of those things you have done for me so far, you are really my best friend. i thought about it toay... i realised that i shouldn't be caring so much on how others think about me i can't make them change their views about me if they are my true friends they will support me completely and say nothinig behind my back like what amadea said on friday, i would rather that they say it in front of me then behind my back. from today onwards, i am going to be living for myself i am not gonna care what others think about me unless you tell me straight in the face i am gonna be who i am suppose to be.if you are someone who makes my friends turn against me... i rather not have you as my friend then. i am trying so hard to forget all the fears i have but it just keeps coming back to me...all my insecurities. i didn't know that all of you were doing this behind my back...i thought we were friends and a clique...it just that i love you guys so much yet you said all those stuff about me.do you know how hurt me and hannah were? have you people actually cared? you people are not gonna see it anyway but i know he does,he will judge all of you one day for it.all of those things made me understand who are my real friends now... thanks hannah for comforting me, listening to me and always being there for me.thanks kenneth for hearing all those things we said and keeping it to yourself...i appreciate it alot.
you all have lost my trust completely...i never thought you will ever do this to me