September 11, 20087:05 PM
I am kinda of having mixed feelings right now... I feel happy cause tomorrow is a friday which means that the wedding is only 2 days away! I feel confused at what is happening right now, people seems to be treating me really nicely one moment and the next moment i feel that all of it is gone. I feel hatred to myself cause I realised that I can't trust people easily... they kinda need to earn it for themselves. I lost trust in alot of people bcause of simple things and I hate for that day when I lose trust in everyone. I can't even trust myself now due to what has happened this term... I made alot of bad choices, considering that the clique is just only an outer covering to 'bring' us together, inside the clique we are small different groups and if 1 person was to quit the clique... the clique would be over, I think that is a good thing I guess. I just hate it that everyone seems to have changed including me... I guess I started all of this. I got the clique to turn against someone and thou I can't forgive her totally... I started the whole clique hating people in our clique... I started all of it. sometimes i just wished i could start a new life never making all those mistakes...
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