today was such an emotional day, starting of the day was quite okay. for some reason these few days were like stupid. got rejected again at fps and kinda scolded by sl, we are like lagging behind other groups and must buck up. start concentrating after ct. gonna study super hard after ct to like do well, i don't wish to like top for the class or something but just wanna enjoy the process of studying! came home and chatted with hannah, had a mini emotional breakdown and started crying. thank god hannah was like comforting me and stuff or i will be at loss. don't really wish to talk about the reasons, its like there were alot of things on my mind. i was thinking about priorities today for some reason and i realise sometimes i dun put god as my first priorities and dun rely on him at all. i used to think i could do everything on my own but i realise that we should rely on god, hannah actually thought me that. thanks hannah! its like a super long story and i realise that i have to rely on god like how you rely on your parents sometimes, but dun over rely on him. god does miracles but you must first show that you put in hardwork.

recently met with loads of failure, in terms of my standard and i think that sometimes god wanna teach us lessons and be more humble, maybe? he may just want us to fail and a true failure is someone who doesn't pick themselves up after they fail. so i am gonna buck up and just study harder. for those who did badly, dun worry its only common test, i calculated the marks it only is like 2 marks of your overall if you score full marks, dun worry. lets be late bloomers together, late bloomers last forever, people who bloom early will die earlier if they are too proud, so lets work hard together besties!

today mei bdae surprise was kinda a failure thanks to p.g. arh... he let us off like 10 mins late and like ruin the whole thing but hope mei likes the gifts.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI!
thank you mei, have an awesome birthday ok?! you a 15 years old now, high-five. stay pretty!