these few days if anyone have realised i have become alot quieter and like always looking sad, actually that is one of the real side of me that no one ever seen before except my family. this is the side of me that none of my friends seen before. i am actually very quiet and will take a long time to open up and trust someone. so if you ever lose my trust forget on gaining it back. i just feel that my mind is such a whirlwind. i get angry and be in a bad mood for no reason, i become really quiet in class and feel like isolating myself from them. dun feel really that friendly in a way. can't really figure out why i am like this but yea, if you didn't really realise that i am kinda isolating myself, i am telling you now. i feel so alone sometimes but i just like the feeling of being alone sometimes. give me time to sort out my thoughts and feelings.

i am so burdened by so much stuff, test, friendship, cca, competition, god, commitments, priorities, etc. its like weighing me down, i am depending on god but like i really need time to just take a breather and relax and just sort out my thoughts. feel so stoney in class, like i can actually not be in class and no one will notice cause i am just quiet these days. i seem to cry alot these few days and being really emotional. i simply hate people who rub in on you when you don't do well and like keep complaining about their results, i just feel very hurt when some people do that, i am already upset enough, stop rubbing it in, can you people be more sensitive. i am not scolding anyone exactly, dun bother asking...

to amanda and mandy:

i know how you guys feel on like doing badly
just try harder the next round
put in more hard work ok?
its only one common test
just cry it out if you want
and forget about it the next day
lets work hard together!
i am also trying!