today was such a screw-up, the moment i remembered i forgot something in my prayer this morning, i knew this day was gonna be stupid. chemistry was okay... hope i did well. maths was okay too... i owe sihui a subway! i couldn't have scored any worser for english and econs. its dumb how i scored so badly and i studied for it! feel like crying but that won't make me feel better. going to buck up and start studying hard from today onwards. feel so crappy today, was talking to hannah and javier today and i guess hannah started crying, jiayous hannah, if you need a hug, i will always be free =). school was stupid couldn't concentrate on anything today for some reason, god please help me. these few days i have been eating alot! arh... i am gonna grow fat! going to do a lengthier devotion and be more serious on it!
omgosh! i just saw this on a devotion website and its like god has spoken to me. i was really grumbling and complaining about how sucky this day was and just keep complaining but i didn't realise that this will like chew away the foundation of confidence and vision of the people of god. i am being like a termite! god please help me! here is the devotion:
Beloved, do not grumble against one another, so that you may not be judged. See, the Judge is standing at the doors! (James 5.9
NRSV)
Are you a grumbler?
A grumbler is a person who doesn't know how to handle the unhappiness which naturally occurs when parties disagree. Grumblers are people who do not know appropriate ways to express their disagreements with leadership. Rather than finding appropriate ways to show their discontent, grumblers stir up unhealthy conflict. That's what makes a person a grumbler. Sadly, these are frequently people who have good intentions. Yet the results of their grumbling are disastrous to the church.
One recent writer compared grumblers to termites. They slowly chew away at the foundation of confidence and vision of the people of God. Grumblers simply don't seem to know appropriate ways to have healthy conflict in their lives. They don't know how to talk about their discontentment in ways that are honest.
Don’t be a grumbler. With love and care of the people of God, be honest. Do all you can to build up the community of faith.
Dear God, move the grumbling out of my soul. Amen.