so i'm bored. really have no idea what to do right now. had a mini movie marathon yesterday, watched 2 movies the whole night. school's starting tomorrow and i honestly can't wait. this week is going to be such a busy week, there's piano, sister's concert, class test, school work, tuition and the list goes on. this week is going to be great! ^^

sometimes i wish upon a star that people start believing in miracles, that miracles do exist. even in the darkest hour. every time i look at videos on people who have pulled through their darkest hours in life or are born with disabilities yet they could impact the world, somehow i wish i could be them, i could impact the world and make a difference. every night, i pray that tomorrow is going to be a better day, that tomorrow a miracle will happen in my life, sometimes those prayers come true.

boo.okay its not scary.

i realised i've been so foolish and stupid all along. its not like you would care or anything, why do i always hope maybe for once something good will happen.. you're just going to be in my history. i will shed no more tears over this. its pointless.

i'm so dead beat! feel like sleeping. worrying bout term 3 alr. omgee, it seems like everything is happening way too quickly and i haven't have the chance to enjoy anything yet :( i don't mind going back to the start of the years!

i feel like buying a wig, maybe a wig that is brown or something, maybe even blue. it seems fun dressing up as a completely different person and no one recognizing who you are.

confession time: i don't like going home alone.

its super boring and i have nothing to do except stare into space. i rather have someone to talk to sometimes.

the holidays are ending and a busy term is about to start! yay!^^

what i've been doing for the whole week : study.

been studying the whole week and glad to say, my holiday assignments will be completed today. full on studying next week and just getting ready for the new school term. watch a-team too this week which was action-pack and great! can't wait to start mugging and mugging non-stop! ^^

busy for the past few days. spring cleaning, tuition, class outing. it has been so much fun!

finished watching glee. it is my favourite episode! had tuition ytd and shervinder couldn't make it. ended up talking to jeric and jason during tuition. there were funny moments, and time passed really quickly!

week 2of june hols are almost over. class outing tmr. can't wait! ^^

my mind is clustered with so much thoughts. i just really want to see the rainbow soon. sound so emo and morbid these few days, things have been so haywire and like some tangled rope. no matter how i try to be positive i can't. no matter what encouragement or compliments i receive i just can't take them for real. i can't see myself that way, its like after all that happened,doubts appear everytime. everyday feels so lifeless, i feel so trapped. and i don't know what to do.

back from the weekends! it was so much fun! gonna upload the photos soon. had a nice talk with chael last night. love you girl! ^^ thanks so much for what you said.

i feel like going to a park to blow bubbles and pop them.
i feel like blowing glitter into the air and watching it fall to the ground.

i don't know why but i'm thinking of my grandfather who passed away many years ago. its been a decade. i still remember the last time i saw him, it was a sunday. i heard so many stories as i grow up about how he used to have coins in his pocket and would bring me to sit on those merry-go-rounds. how he would buy me chocolates and candies. part of me miss him alot.

just when i wanna pick myself up again this happens. for once, grow up.

went out to watch prince of persia with ber ytd! its nice ^^ i love it! ~

was thinking bout the difference between me and ber ytd, apparently there is alot. gonna list a few:

1. she's a neat freak, always scolding me about my messy table. i'm not one.
2. she hates going out. i love it! ^^
3. she's good in english. i'm not, lol.

guess 3 is enough, lol. if ber reads this, i think she will kill me. but i still love her. ^^