fly away with me.

and i'm just going on and on.

August 31, 20101:20 PM

this photo reminds me of step up for some reason. been a long time since i sat in front of the computer just surfing the net and doing nothing. and i miss it. even though now's not the time to be doing such stuff.
call me weird but i actually like the exam period. the late night studying, smiling after every paper and just doing my best for the next paper. it feels good and i can't remember when i last felt so happy for such a long period of time.
and i just wanna dedicate the remaining part of this post to rachael for some reason.

chaelchael i'm not really sure if you're gonna read it but hopefully you do :)
thank you chaelchael for listening to me rant and go all squealy about my dreams. thank you for being my listening ear and just spurring me on every time i feel doubtful about myself. you make me feel like you don't take me for granted and just appreciate me for who i am. thank you for always caring about how i feel and just being with me during recess and going to school with me. thank you for just being who you are and i love you so much! you're going to be an established writer next time and i know that you will. when you do, i'm gonna buy your novels and read all of them. love you so much and stay happy! :)

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up up and away.

August 25, 20107:54 PM

i feel like i'm walking down this same path. every single time i think about it you feel so familiar like you have been into my life, but i really don't know who you are. i just wish you would appear in my life quickly cause right now, every time i think about how it would all turn out, it makes me happy. it makes me happier than i ever felt in reality. you seem like the only escape i have right now apart from God from this crazy life. when can you make your appearance into my life? sometimes i would just sit there wondering if you are thinking of the same thing, having the same dream.

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at the end of the day, we are left with ourselves.

August 24, 20104:03 PM

i know i'm not the smartest person in the world, i know i'm the prettiest person or the nicest and kindest person in the world. but sometimes, i really wish i can be good at something. be good and nice and sweet. sometimes i just wish someone would appreciate me and not take me for granted. many times i wish something would feel that empty spot in me and make me realize that i'm not alone. but i guess i'm not good enough to deserve all of that.

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i wish someone would wipe away my tears without asking.

August 20, 201010:14 PM

great movie! ^^

with a blink of an eye, we are down to our last few days of lessons already. what happens when all these are over? i know i'm gonna miss all of it.
sometimes i wish someone would really understand how i'm feeling and all my frustrations and worries. i can't seem to forget bout all of this even though i try so hard. they just come back haunting me every single time. sometimes i wish i don't have to plaster a smile on my face, it makes me sick knowing that its just an act. who am i trying to delude? the world or me?

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August 12, 20109:02 PM

been thinking today, life is already all planned out for us.
firstly, we go to kindergarten then primary school then secondary school followed by Junior college or polytechnic and finally university or out into the society.
it seems like everything has been decided for us when we were born. everyone has to do something everyday, be it if you are a rich businessman or a homeless man. there would not be one day you can just relax and enjoy yourself without having to run an errand or something.
so why are we living on earth when its so boring and decided?

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this is my fairytale.

August 10, 20103:59 PM

drea and ber got new phones!

right now, i can't imagine how my life would be if i took another route. i'm thankful that i'm on this route at least. i'm glad all my friends are in my life right now. i can't imagine how different it would be without them by my side. thank you guys! :)

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Never take life for granted. Cherish every single day on this earth

August 07, 20109:12 PM

i feel like eating frozen yogurt right now. its so soft and melty! :)
looked at my old photos a few days back and i couldn't recognise myself, its like i changed so much!
went out with j.a.m yesterday! it was so much fun and thanks you guys for the gift! its so beautiful! how i wish our days could be like this, that would be great.

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August 05, 20109:48 PM

when I lock myself up in the room, I start to think. why am I like this? cant I be more hardworking? what's wrong with me today? after all these roller coaster rides, I realise that it was all a mistake. every morning I wake up, praying that a miracle would happen today, I wait and wait but nothing comes along, and when it actually happens, it becomes disastrous. why cant I see myself the way people see me? or am I already seeing the ugly side of me people see?

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August 04, 20106:00 AM

you used to mean so much to me but I guess all that have changed now. I just don't get you. here I am trying but there you are not even bothering.

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you will only be a part of my memory

August 02, 20108:32 PM

many times i wonder if i'm happy or i'm sad. i wonder what's the definition of happy and sad. can you feel both at the same time?

these days are just leaving no impact or memory, everyday feels like a particle of sand in the beach. sometimes, i just want something big and positive to happen in my life, something that would just complete that moment.

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